Wednesday, 22 October 2014

Calling about the Seven Doubles

"Tet, Aleph, Aleph.. wat's your tsoross?" Rabbi Bar-zel Arieh Tzion answers with a tired voice.

"Uh, Rabbi it's me," I answer wondering for the seventh time whether calling him was a bad idea or not.

"Shimonelle," he sounds genuinely pleased to hear my voice. "Nu? How's my favourite talmid [student]?"

"Uh," now he's got me really worried. "Fine, just fine, thank Heaven. I had a question about chapter four from Sefer Yetzirah [Book of Formation]. It's about a difference of attribution between the seven double letters, the planets, letters, and sefirot."

"Och, that's an easy one. Simplez." he chuckles as he tries to slip in a bit of what he thinks is slang. "Just noch a minute, I wanted to ask you about this Farspace you have been watching."

"Farscape," I quietly correct him, my mind racing to avoid several dark corners.

"Firescape, yes that is the one. Why does John Klingon have this Scorpion in his head and is also a man on the outside of him? Seems to me he is either a yetzer [spiritual force/urge] or a shed [type of demon]. Rashi says in this week's parsha Noach, even the shedim got a ride in the teva [ark]."

"Uh," I hesitate as one of the dark corners in my mind coalesces in to a worm-hole. "Where are you going with this Rabbi?"

"Och, it's nothing." He sighs, disappointed that I have failed to pick up whatever he has tried to hint at. "We read every morning, 'Shnei Ketuvim... Two passages contradict one another and a third comes to reconcile between them'. So nu.. you have Ramak [Rabbi Moshe Cordovero] saying one thing and [Rabbi Chaim] Vital paskening [ruling] another way... now look for a third to reconcile between them".

"Uh, thank." I start to put down the phone receiver, not really sure if that vague advice was worth the price.

Monday, 13 October 2014

Rain Summoning Ancestral Hut

Rain, a blessing
It's Succot time, one of the three pilgrim festivals to celebrate the end of the harvest season. For this particular festival we build a temporary structure to commemorate surviving the desert. As well as wave a palm, willow and myrtle branches with a funny looking citrus fruit called an etrog.

The waving is to spread blessing, the succah (temporary booth... or rain summoning ancestral hut, as I like to call it) is to remind us that this world is a temporary abode where spirit and body inhabit (approximately) the same space.

Zombie Apocalypse

Whilst it's a happy festival - there is a note of sobriety injected by reading the book of Koheles / Ecclesiastes. However, the reading of Zechariah 14:12 made me consider my mortality:

"...This will be the plague with which Hashem will strike all the peoples that have organized against Jerusalem: Each one's flesh will melt away while he is standing on his feet; each one's eyes will melt away in their sockets; and each one's tongue will melt away in their mouths..."

Is it me, or does that read a bit like there will be a zombie apocalypse?

Death, A Dark Room

In all seriousness though I recently came across a beautiful and very moving description of dealing with loss of a loved one. This was written by Rabbi Avi Weiss following the death of his mother:

"...To what can death be compared? To a person who enters a darkened room  for the first time and trips over the furniture. Each time he enters the room, he learns more and more where the furniture stands. In time, he becomes familiar with the room, and despite the darkness knows how to get around...

So, too, death. There is a darkness in death that cannot be chased away. But it is possible to learn how to go on living despite the darkness that forever remains..."

New Year Retrospective

The last topic I want to touch on in brief is that of retrospectives. In project management it's used to drive continuous improvement (amongst other reasons). Generally 3 questions are asked: "What went wrong?", "What went well?", and "What can we improve on next time?"

"They tried to kill us.
They failed.
Let's eat!”

is the summary for most Jewish holidays and history in general. The main take-away message though is that survival is not just enough - we need to try to make the world a better place.

These past few blog posts have not touched on Kabbalah, golem building, or mysticism much. What I hope they have touched on is emotional resilience and well being. As I read further in chapter 4 of Sefer Yetzirah - I realize that emotional balance is not just a nice-to-have when it comes to the practice of magic, it's a survival skill. And as I've stated above - survival is not just enough - we have to do better.

Your minhag may vary (YMMV)

Tuesday, 7 October 2014

5775 Message

This New Year's 5775** message of hope if brought to you by George Deek in Oslo. Next post we'll get back to the intricacies of Golem Building :-)

** - 5775 is not the age of the planet or Universe (see Rabbi Aryeh Kaplan's book on the age of the Universe). It's the time in years since a human gained Divine consciousness in this epoch of human evolution and development. If Adam was the first human ever, why did Cain build a city for his son. Seems like a lot of building for only a handful of humans on the planet... Whilst on the subject of not taking scripture at face value... how are your studies of Kabbalah progressing?

Saturday, 20 September 2014

End of Year Thoughts

As mentioned previously, I don't have much time to blog at the moment. So here is a round up the kernel of some thoughts that are knocking around in my head at the moment.

Want to Meditate versus Want to Have Meditated
A Rabbi once said to me: "Sometimes I want to pray and sometimes I just want to have prayed." In other words, sometimes the act is the goal and sometimes the goal is just having done it. An example is the difference between "I'm enjoying this meal" and "I'm glad I had lunch (but have no memory of the taste of it)".

Apologies for hammering home this point. I think it's quite important and Rufus Opus' recent post touches on a similar idea. What are you choosing to spend time on? Well, as Jason from Strategic Sorcery has stated on a number occasions.. if there is only one thing that you do in magic (paraphrasing) make sure it is meditation.

So... do you want to meditate or want to have meditated?
Do you find meditation boring or see it as a means to an end, rather than an end in itself?

Recommended reading:
[Book] Mastery by George Leonard (Scribbler recommendation)
[Blog Post]  On the Nature of Work (by Frater Acher)

Animating the In-Animate
Trainee Golem builders like me, learning to create humanoid life within inanimate matter such as clay, have a thing about finding out who else is working on creating human like life-forms from inanimate matter.

So you can imagine my delight when I came across these two TEDs talks. The first is about creating algorithms for quad-copters to work together. That might not sound very magical, but when you learn a little about how artificial life can be made - it gets pretty interesting (in my opinion) how you can create smaller entities that working together can achieve amazing results. And the secret is in getting the algorithms (i.e. instructions) right.

The other video (and if you only watch one, I recommend this one) is about making robots appear more life-like - with soul.

In Other News
Daf Zohar, daily study of Zohar, has been kicked off on Facebook. Here is the description of the project:
A Zohar study group. Currently focusing on Zohar Ammud Yomi, A Daily Page of Zohar. Members are also welcome to discuss any other Zohar passages. This is an unofficial group of students and teachers reading the Zohar (Pritzker Edition etc) together and sharing what we discover.
I bought a copy of the first book in the Pritzker edition translation of the Zohar. Until now I have shied away from studying the Zohar as I am mainly interested in pre-Zohar Jewish mystical writings. However, a recent comment by one of the people I consider to be a (distant) teacher made me realise that I should study it at some point in the next couple of decades.

Let's see how long the project lasts and whether I can keep up with the additional daily study or not.

Tuesday, 9 September 2014

September Mini-Reviews

Jason just posted about keeping a balance between time, money, and attention. The way that I view it is that there are a number of plates that I need to keep spinning in my life: Family, work, studying, friends, meditation, finances, romance, parenting, etc (in no particular order). I can only focus on keeping a few of those well balanced and the others I just need to pick up and get spinning once in awhile.

Story reviews

Anyway, I digress before even getting in to the point of this post. Because my time is taken up with a lot of commuting (4 hours a day) and hence that is when my study time is... I don't have a lot of time for blogging. Therefore I am lumping a number of reviews all together. My apologies for the people whose work are mentioned - you deserve a more in-depth review.

1. Mechanicals by Jordan Stratford (5/5)
Starting with the best first. This book was my first Steampunk novel and I thoroughly enjoyed the journey that the protagonists took in their journey. Along the way they encountered a number of people whose name will ring a bell with those familiar with historical figures in the occult world. What I really loved were the descriptions of how one of the characters learned to operate a mechanical, when some others encountered a doll that was not all it appeared and how a demon made two weeks seemingly disappear. Really exhilarating adventure but it ended a little too abruptly. I hope a sequel is in the works.

2. Alice Adventures in Steamland: Clockwork Goddess by Wol-vriey (2/5)
Whilst the former novel had a character with a bit of a virgin theme, this novel's main character is a prostitute and there was plenty of sex. Now, I don't mind sex in a novel if it's done well - but this was not the case for this novel in my opinion. If you fancy a spunky (literally) heroine in a gore-filled version of Wonderland with steam, cake, icing, hatters, more icing, a clockwork goddess - this is the novel for you.

3. Joe Golem and the Copper Girl: A Short Story by Mike Mignola (5/5)
Having done the good and the bad, it's now the turn of the ugly. Except that the only ugly thing in this short story are the looks of the hero and the ugly side of human nature. Thoroughly enjoyable story set in the drowning city (reviewed here). Although the city was not described in as vivid detail as I might have liked (I find the setting to be as interesting a character as the protagonists or villains - for example my favourite character in Farscape if Moya) it was a beautifully written and moving short story.

Meditation Review

Getting back in to basic letter meditation. Going well so far. Considering that I am now reading through chapters 3 and 4 of Rabbi Moshe Cordovero's "Ohr Yaka" commentary on Sefer Yetzirah - I should hopefully get in to the more involved letter combination meditations in the coming months. Lots of exciting stuff on the horizon.

The Lions 

Unfortunately I will not be able to actively provide any aid to the Detroit Lions football team this year, seeing as I am currently a theoretical golem builder. However, there were two techniques that I used in the first year of the Lion Who Roared project that seemed to have a big impact. One was a meditation on the Divine Name of 72 triple letters. The other was refraining from certain activities.

In Judaism there was a number of positive and negative commandments. There are 613 in total and 248 positive (do something) and 365 negative (do not...) commandments.

So this year I will be putting special emphasis and focus on one of the "do not" commandments. Let's see if that has any passive boost to the performance of the Lions as I seem to have some level of entanglement with them. I call this not-a-project "An awesome lion, who dares rouse him?"

Sunday, 24 August 2014

Finally, chapter 3 It's about Time

Finally, I made it past chapters 1 and 2 in Sefer Yetzira (Book of Creation**). Here is a quick recap of the first few chapters in the form of a bullet list, the hot new way to convey esoteric material.

  • Chapter 1:
    • Introduced the Sefirot at length. I don't really have a good translation for Sefirot, they're all equally poor at conveying what the Esser Sefirot Beli-Mah are about. 
    • The Sefer Yetzira is the oldest Kabbalistic text to mention the Sefirot. They are only mentioned in the first chapter (and not all listed by name). 
    • After chapter 1 there is no further mention of the Sefirot
    • The author assumes that you've either understood and had experience of the Sefirot as outlined how to achieve this in first chapter - or not. 
    • Failure to achieve this in chapter 1, makes the remaining chapter (in my opinion) academic.
  • Chapter 2:
    • Now we get in to the detail of the division of the Aleph Bet series in to 3 mother, 7 double, and 12 elemental/simple letters.
    • This chapter explains various techniques of how to manipulate the letters as meditative exercises
    • These include (for want of a better translation on my part): engraving, carving, letter cycling, weighing, and refinement. 
    • Revealed in this chapter is the basis for creating a golem
    • Rabbi Moshe Cordovero at the end of this chapter's commentary spends a lot of time expounding the meaning of the shape of the letters
    • I have to respectfully respond to this by countering that the sound is more important that the shape.
  • Chapter 3: 
    • Well, I'm still part way through this chapter.
    • So far it's covered the 3 mother letters
    • What they represent in terms of space, time, and soul / consciousness / mind?
    • And how they map on to the 3 worlds, 3 elements, and how they fit in to the chain of emanation that we like to call Creation  of all the worlds.
This is not related to topic of Sefer Yetzira, but does have to do with sound. There are certain tunes that are frequently sung at the end of service to a prayer called Adon Olam. I'm hoping that this Happy tune will join the repertoire being sung in congregations around the world(s).

** There are two words in Hebrew about creation, the first Barah is generally used in Kabbalistic writing that I have come across to refer to creation of Something from Nothing. The other word Yotzer means creating Something from Something. Hence the Sefer Yetzira, book of formation is about the 3rd 'world' in the chain of world emanations (Atzilut, Beriah, Yetzira, Assiah... we're mostly conscious of the latter).

Thursday, 14 August 2014

Mix of Ideas, Part 1

This post is a mix of ideas, none of which are fully developed. Please think of them as seed ideas, do with them as you will...

Jason recently wrote about  eclecticism part 1, part 2, and part 3. Really good articles and advice that I heartily recommend. It got me thinking about the fact that certain types of problems that face are very common and we come up with very similar solutions to them each time. In software development terms we call them Design Patterns.

There is however the idea of anti-Patterns, which in brief refers to the applying the wrong Design Pattern (common tried and tested approaches to solving problems). I can't really think of a decent example of this in a magical context...

Keep Your Head Off the Mat
I recently started attending a weekly Aikido class. Inspired by Scribbler's post, I finally got organised enough to attend four weeks in a row. In the class a new person joined and I initially made the mistake of thinking that he was a novice like me... boy was I wrong. Turns out he learned from O-Sensei's last pupil and he ended up running that evening's class.

One of the things the guest Sensei taught is to keep your head off the mat. It's hard to explain how different it feels to let your head rest on the floor when someone is trying to grapple you - compared to how you feel in the same situation but you make an effort to keep your head off the floor. In the former your body feels like it has at least partially given up. In the latter you feel stronger, as if you can struggle for longer.

Sometimes on your magical path you feel like life gets the upper hand and you end up on the floor so to speak. Even if you end up in such a situation, remember to keep your head up Mr. Black and you've got a fighting chance of getting back in the game.

Ecology of Spirits and Lands
Today the Digital Ambler posted a call to arms: Get Off Your Ass and Work: Magic and Politics. I commend his desire to better the world, if we don't at least try to leave the world as a better place for the generations to come... what are we really here for?

Here are three things that I have learned in my brief forays in to this area:
  1. Geopolitics is like studying ecology. You can look at only one aspect, for example 'follow the money', religion, etc in the same way that a biologist might only focus on the water cycle, carbon cycle, etc. But oversimplifying it leads to (more) flawed analysis and hence I recommend looking at it as a complex system of constantly interacting and changing organisms and environments. Embrace the complexity. If you've read Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency by Douglas Adams you'll know that by saving the coelecanth, the dodo died out.
  2. Analysis of Spell Patterns. Cryptonomicon by Neal Stephenson does a really good job of explaining that if you cannot decipher communication, that by studying when and where signals are being sent - you can learn something about who is sending messages and  speculate about why. I think that the same idea could be applied to trying to map the influence other mages have in the realm of geopolitics. You may not be able to work out how they're doing it. But you could see patterns emerge in how various political figures behave and when they start 'acting out of character'. Then again, this could be an anti-pattern of what Stephenson describes...
  3. You're playing with the big boys now. The politics of nations, which the Book of Daniel mentions each has an angelic prince representing them is not an arena to wonder in to, dabble a bit and then go back to your day to day life. This is not re-tweeting your 20 seconds of emotional outburst about one of the many, many conflicts going on the world. Dreamworks even has a song about it. 
Anyway, I had another couple of topics to add to this post. But it's too long already of under-developed ideas and it's late in the evening for me. Sleep tight.

Wednesday, 13 August 2014

Not enough golems to hold the centre

Holding the Centre

Yeats wrote the poem Second Coming in 1918 after the First World War which starts with:
Turning and turning in the widening gyre
The falcon cannot hear the falconer;
Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;
Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,
The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere
The ceremony of innocence is drowned;
The best lack all conviction, while the worst
Are full of passionate intensity.
I first came across the line "the centre cannot hold" in Babylon 5. Both in Yeats' time and in G'Kar's fictional time-line in B5, a great war came along soon afterwards. I'm quoting this because I believe that the centre can hold, I am optimistic for the future...

Disappearing Centre

In my community and in similar communities across the United Kingdom, there has been a shift happening away from the centre for the past few decades. Reform and conservative Judaism are drifting away (from my viewpoint) from the Orthodox and ultra-Orthodox communities and the middle(-ish) ground of Modern Orthodox is shrinking. People are either choosing to assimilate and leave their Jewish heritage behind or making a sustained effort to engage deeper with their Jewish heritage.

When challenged on this viewpoint (which should certainly be challenged as it is my very biased opinion), I ask: "How many fourth generation Reform Jews do you know?" and on the other side I ask "How many people do you know who have become frum (observing of religious law) through Aish or other Jewish outreach organizations?"

However, despite the erosion of the middle ground I believe that the centre can hold, I am optimistic for the future...


Back in the day when I was at University a couple of decades ago, it was possible to have a civilized conversation about the Israeli-Palestinian conflict - be critical of both sides and have a creative debate on various resolutions. Now it seems that there is such cognitive bias and so much of an "us versus them" mentality, that I wonder if those University days were just a dream.

Anyway, this part of the post is about discernment... as I believe that it is a crucial skill for any aspiring warlock or witch to develop. Especially given the variety of books, blogs, lectures, etc available in this age of connectivity.

For example, regarding the current conflict between Hamas and Netanyahu government.. did you know that there is a special United Nations aid agency for the Palestinians? Every other refugee in the world gets refereed to the UNHCR. The latter has "..As of April 2008, the UNHCR employed a staff of 6,351 people in 117 countries..." Whilst the former has "...employing over 25,000 staff, 99% of which are locally recruited Palestinians..." The reason why I am highlighting UNWRA is that they are not the neutral party the media might like you to think, here is a less positive view.

OK, so what about all the civilians who were killed in the last few weeks in Gaza? Again I recommend continuing development in the area of discernment to work out exactly who was killed. But Simon, all this is an extremely biased view of what happened... you might say and you would be correct. Don't believe me. But please do question the reporters who show Syrian photos and attribute them to Gaza and the same reporters who after the conflict admit to harassment and intimidation, as well as the fact that rockets were fired from civilian areas.

OK, last video and it's a long one. But it's important in my opinion as it's the words of a man who has fought in the Middle East and know how wars are conducted in this part of the world.


I would like to say that I am hopeful about the future, but I'm not so sure about that future for my family in Europe. Arguments such as these for legitimate protest against Israel have one glaring hole. The lack of protests around the Ukraine conflict is deafening.

The legendary Golem of Prague was originally created to prevent blood libels. As a trainee golem builder, I am not sure that I could ever build enough golems to counter the reporting that would have you believe that the Israeli army deliberately target women and children.

Discernment and dialogue are the two means by which I believe the centre could hold... and with those in mind I can retain my optimism for the future.

DISCLAIMER: I wrote this article in a sleep-deprived state. I will edit it in the coming days...

Monday, 11 August 2014

This is not a reivew: Merkabah Rider by Edward M Erdelac

This is not a review of Edward M Erdelac's four books of short stories, but if it was it would be effusive with praise shouted from the rooftops. I bought the first book awhile ago and did not get around to reading it right away... and then to break up the monotony of reading project management books I decided to try reading the first book. In just under 2 weeks I had read all four books.
For those unfamiliar with Merkava Mysticism, it was a set of techniques used by Jewish mystics in the early centuries of the common era (and possibly before) that used Ezekiel's vision as a means of Heavenly ascent. The teachings of Ma'aseh Merkava ("Workings of the Chariot") made their way from the Near East to Germany and then on to Spain.

The last of an ancient order of Jewish mystics capable of extraplanar travel, The Merkabah Rider roams the demon haunted American West of 1879 in search of the renegade teacher who betrayed his enclave. But as the trail grows fresher, shadows gather, and The Hour Of The Incursion draws near...

The Merkabah Rider stories weave together the Merkava mystical ascent narrative in to the Wild West setting. It combines so many elements of Jewish Magic, Myth, and Mysticism that I was glad to have my copy of The Encyclopedia of Jewish Myth, Magic and Mysticism by Rabbi Geoffrey W. Dennis on hand for cross-referencing of terms.

If that was not enough of a reason to read the stories, they are all really well written and I just couldn't stop reading them. The fact that it combined Jewish mythology with Cthulhu mythology was just a cherry on top of the icing of this excellent series.

Merkabah rider series gets 5 out of 5 stars.

Sunday, 20 July 2014

Project Update 20 July 2014

It's been awhile since I last reviewed my projects... so here goes:
  • Project TARDIS-AS
    • On hold for next 5 years, due to advice given not to advance practical side of learning with young family.
  • Hebrew Immersion Study Course 
    • Completed. However, the Nevi'im (Prophets) and Ketuvim (Writings) parts was not done. Also, the scope was expanded to include studying Mishnah on a daily basis. I am now half way through studying Nashim and hence on-track for completing the 6 year cycle in 5 years time.
  • Finding a Teacher
    • Recently I was sitting on the bus studying Sefer Yetzirah commentary by Rabbi Moshe Cordovero, when upon completing chapter 2... I asked if it would be possible to find someone else with whom I could share my experiences and learning. "Who did you ask?" would be a sensible question and the truth is: I don't know.
    • However, as a dear friend said recent 'the Universe blinked' and through a series of events whose probability is rather small - I ended up finding a group of like minded people. Let's see if this goes somewhere interesting after my recent attempt to form a group never really got off the ground...
Whilst on the subject of finding a teacher... I just want to take this opportunity to plug Josephine McCarthy's and Frater Achers' new free magic training course: Quareia, a Magical School for the 21st Century. If you find the initial teachings useful, I recommend that you show your support by helping fund the creation of the course if you are able.

Monday, 7 July 2014

Revealing Light, Responsibly

The past couple of weeks have been very painful. As my Rabbi put it... when our extended family are killing each other - killing children - something is very wrong. The question is what can we do?

I stumbled across the answer last week when watching a pod-cast on about Agile thought leadership. You can find the slides here, in particular slide 18. It talks about the journey that a person goes through from:
  1. Denial
  2. Lay Blame
  3. Justify
  4. Shame
  5. Obligation
  6. Responsibility
I've personally been stuck feeling "trapped" in stage 5. and it's something that RO touched on recently. To move to the last stage - the author of the Ideosphere posted on this recently - it's about taking responsibility for your own success and investing in learning.

The action that I'll be taking is to learn more Mishna (Oral Law) and Nach (Prophets and Writing). How is that going to help you may ask? Well simply reading with understanding by itself has a transformative effect on my surrounding and the world in general.

But it is also a plea for the Divine not to "hide itself" in the world. There is a level at which Divinity operates that is within the natural order of things, where the laws of cause and effect prevail. This is symbolized by the name Elohim. On the other hand there is the level of Divinity that transcends nature. This is symbolized by the four letter name of the Divine.

Taking responsibility is in my mind making a choice to actively engage with the Divine on the level of the four letter name that is beyond nature as well as the name of the Divine within nature. Hence my decision to put more emphasis on study, it elevates and connects transmission of Divine flow from the latter in to the former.

Monday, 23 June 2014

Healing from Shrapnel

A colleague of mine told me how at the weekend she pulled out a piece of glass from her arm that was as large as her nail. Apparently she'd been in a collision with a bus thirteen years ago whilst riding a bike. Whilst the doctors were able to remove most of the glass from her body, they missed this (rather large) piece. For the last thirteen years her body had slowly and steadily been working on ejecting the glass shrapnel from her body.

Her story reminded me of the emotional shrapnel that I have been working to remove. I've managed in recent years to overcome my addition to computer gaming, but that has been in large part to reconfiguring my life to leave little or no room for gaming. Rather than locate and adjust the root cause of my addiction. It was perhaps a rather extreme solution, but it worked.

Whilst on the subject of shrapnel, Gordon raises an interesting point about what percentage of population needs to be convinced of an idea (regardless of its validity) for it to take root.
Another quote, this time from Dr Robert Schoch.
A study carried out at Rensselaer Polytechnic Institute (see Xie et al. 2011) indicates that when 10 percent of a population holds strongly and unshakably a certain belief, this belief will be adopted by the majority. Thus, to gain widespread acceptance for an idea actually only requires convincing 10 percent of the group under concern (such as the community of scientists). But of course this is a double-edged sword. The initial 10 percent (with the majority following in its wake) may be convinced of an idea independent of whether that idea is valid or not.
The take-away that I derive from this quote is that the beliefs of the silent majority are irrelevant. As seen in China, Germany, Russia, Cambodia, and Congo. When the portion of the population with malevolent intent gains power, the outcome is tragic beyond words.

And then there is the shrapnel that comes with the fall-out. For years the world has ignored what has been going on in Syria and suddenly when Iraq is being carved up the world audience perks up. But not yet, it seems, to make any significant move to avoid tragedy. Right now the news in the UK is focusing on the shrapnel. Think it is much ado about nothing? Some people in Belgium might think differently.

I used to obsess about world news and geopolitics. Now I realize that's pretty pointless. Blogos gives some brilliant advice on how to deal with the darker side of Chesed, i.e. obsession, and that is become a Healer.